Vic M.
Ferzu protects predators like Alice, Ghostragdoll, Yui, and Ghostlypurr
I'm in tears again dealing with the traumatic memories with my "relationship" I had when I was freshly 19 years old, I'm Gen Z, with someone who is a millennial. Who was 26 at the time. This was 2019. I found and pursued her on Ferzu. I was so bold enough to find my soulmate instead of waiting. She was so tragic and relatable, her stories victimizing herself. We got to know each other, we got closer. One night was intimate, and ever since then we became closer and we got into a concerning age gap relationship that even she commented on. Even on her profile back then she said she didn't want to date anyone who was six years younger than her because it made her "feel predatory" well, you are. She was so sweet at first. This was my first only real relationship. I told her back in 2019 I wouldn't date again if she left. I haven't still. I still believe her lies despite knowing better, that she's my soulmate. I'm just left here waiting. She love bombed me and I thought it was so genuine and sweet back then not knowing love bombing is a manipulation tactic before they start eroding at your sense of self and bullying you. On top of the other red flag is that she said literally all of her exes were "evil" as a "joke" reference to Scott Pilgrim. She told me so many... disgustingly explicit things, that kept destroying me in the relationship ever since. It made me nauseous and made me have panic attacks, even to this day despite the relationship being over. It destroyed me, I kept trying to talk to her about her "body count" when I wasn't comfortable with that and me feeling like one of her "numbers". Long story short, as time went on, when I kept trying to talk to her about it, the more she pushed back and started berating me. Which led me to shut down and go nonverbal to prevent her blowing up at me, but that didn't work either. She'd threaten suicide with kitchen knives for months until I got to the point I did something similar, once, in order to get her to stop threatening me with her life. She used that to smear campaign me on Twitter in 2021 and lied about a quote she herself said, not me. Including smear campaigning me shutting down to prevent her from yelling at me further. I loved her, so much. I still do now despite me full well knowing she never loved me and just typing that is making me cry again and making me thinking of calling the hotline. I blew up at her for months after once I discovered she did the very same thing I kept trying to tell her about I was afraid of her doing. Because the last months in 2020 I wasn't on Ferzu because of how horribly triggering her posts were, she took advantage of that and started talking to someone behind my back on there. For months. Despite herself saying numerous times how she didn't consider it a dating site because of all the "groomers" and "pedos" I wonder which category you fall into, Alice She told me that she "wholeheartedly believed I'm your soulmate" while cheating on me, and orchestrating the affair. Her eradicating my character, and me believing her to the point in late 2020, when I was unaware of her cheating, I ended up self harming and I have so many more scars on my arms. After I discovered the affair and after she blamed me and abandoned me, I vomited in early 2021 and wasn't able to eat properly for a good portion of the early year. She constantly talked about the "literal blood sweat and tears" she shed for "Claudia", only for her to not get her in the end. Only for her to be "left for dead", she always went on about her abandonment issues. Yet, she did that to me. I have all these physical and extra mental scars, for what? To be left abandoned, with all these conflicting and nauseating memories. All for her, but I'm left here now trying to pick up the pieces for years. I have an extra hideous scar from 2022 with a razor blade from the memories with her and so many others being unrepressed in 2021. For years and currently, have been trying to learn about pressing charges. Because this is so unfair. That you get to be happy with the person you gaslit and cheated on me with, while I'm here with the long lasting trauma. I had a five day breakdown this week, July 2026 because my heart started pounding even seeing her name on this nice calming website I like posting to. Had a public breakdown trying to hide my tears. I think she's cheating on her too now. Since she always bragged about getting explicit images from so many women and being a womanizer. I tried to warn her in 2021 too. Hopefully she heeds it by now. She never came out publicly about dating me after I came out to her as trans male. Yet she still dated me, despite self proclaiming to be a lesbian. Yet, Ferzu allows people like this to stay. No consequence You deserve every once of suffering, like I suffered for you and still believing you'd come back. You don't deserve to know peace, Allie. Sincerely, Sunshine.